Hello ladies! I hope this blog post finds you all doing well and feeling blessed in the new year. I hope you all had a wonderful holiday season, we had a very nice and relaxed Christmas and New Year, I got spoiled by my dear husband as per usual. :)
I wanted to say to those of you who have been kind enough to read my blog on a regular basis and who actually look forward t my posts that I am sorry i have not been able to blog much in the past few months or take part in your blogs. I do miss it indeed! If I may get a little personal here for a moment or two, Id like to share with you that I have been struggling since I had my daughter nearly two years ago with situational anxiety. It continued to get worse until it reached a peak in the fall of last year and was leading to depression as I felt overwhelmed and disabled by anxiousness, something i have never experienced before in my life with any significance.
Sadly, and somewhat ironically considering the topic and content of this blog, most of my anxiety surrounded my abilities (or lack there of) here at home as a wife, mom, and homemaker. Even though I changed my name to “Old-Fashioned Housewife” and have indeed been trying to be the best wife and mom I can be, housewifery has never come naturally to me and I think my desire since becoming a stay at home mom has been to be perfect at this role. Perfection has been an unrealistic goal considering the steep learning curve I have with my lack of training up to this point, and so the mismatch between expectations and reality led to stress which turned into anxiety.
In November I began attending Celebrate Recovery, which is a Christ-centered 12 step program to help people overcome and get healing with their hurts, habits, and hang-ups in life that keep them stuck and keeps them from living in victory in Christ. I cannot understate the value of this program and how it is changing my life. I wont go into all the details here (although if anyone has any interest and wants to know more about Celebrate Recovery PLEASE dont hesitate to contact me I would love to answer your questions) but I just wanted to say that while my anxiety has improved remarkably, the truth is I simply havent had the time to blog. I’m focusing on my recovery which means a good deal of time in God’s word, in prayer, in worship, attending meetings and step studies. The rest of my time is of course spent trying to keep our home in decent order and caring for my family. There have been times ive wanted to sit down and blog about a meal I made or a deal I found somewhere, but there just hasnt been the time. But i miss it indeed!
Im not saying goodbye to blogging because I hope at some point Ill be able to return to it. In the meantime if I find I have a bit of time and something to share, Ill throw up a post, and hope it might happen to bless someone. I am praying you are all doing well and I am sorry I havent had time to keep up with your precious selves through your blogs. I trust you understand. :)
God bless you all!
Nicole





